It's worth checking out Adrian Dalton on YouTube.He was a really pretty girl before he transitioned.He is now a gay man who does Drag and Pole Dancing.He is very happy being a man and feels it was the best descision he ever made.He's also a really interesting guy. There are plenty of FTM's out there...

Try the Gender Trust Website.www.gendertrust.org.uk.
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The Sandyford will see anyone regardless of where you live in Scotland.You do not need a referral from your G.P.Just phone;0141 211 8137 for a first appointment.
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I think it would be worth talking to a counseler with experience of transgender issues.There is nothing wrong with wanting to crossdress but it's obviously causing you some anxiety as to why you are doing it. If your going to crossdress then i think you would be better buying your own clothes rather...