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I just want out

Postby Guest3306 » Tue Oct 04, 2016 4:48 am

I'm likely transgender, and i absolutely despise myself for even admitting that to myself. I've built up this facade of being a tough guy all my life, and i've repressed these feelings deep inside, but recently, they've flared up like never before. I can't sleep, i can't eat, i feel sick when i look at myself in the mirror, i can't even walk without feeling awkward and wrong. I don't want this dammit. I just want to be normal. I feel on the verge of a breakdown every single night and there's not a damn thing i can do about because i'm absolutely terrified of coming out to anyone in real life. I just want all of this to go away.

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Re: I just want out

Postby Ice Maiden » Wed Oct 05, 2016 11:21 am

This is a very tough time for you. As I cannot be certain of your entire 'timeline' I can only make assumptions.

The hatred of one's body does not necessarily mean you are transgender. People can and do suffer from BDD ( See: http://www.nhs.uk/Conditions/body-dysmo ... ction.aspx ).

However, if this has a co-morbidity, (medications, drug use, stress, depression etc) it can be confused. Now I suspect you have already worked through this, maybe you have felt like a girl/boy (you do not state what your designation at birth was). For some time, maybe even from childhood.

Obviously, this may now have gonE beyond, 'dressing-up' and socialising, as you are in fear of 'outing yourself. Sadly the only real way to manage all these feelings and stress, is to see your GP. You can make an appointment and say you have a cough, or bad throat - Just to get in there! :)

Once in there and sitting down just say, TAKE A DEEP BREATH! "I think I maybe transgender, and am feeling very unwell with these feelings" I NEED HELP!" Can you refer me to a Gender Clinic or local mental health (as it can take time for a referral and you need support now!

This unfortunately is something you are going to have to face up to. There is no magic remedy here. It will be terrifying for you to do. But remember a Doctor has to keep this information confidential. You may have to open a PO BOX or similar if you fear mail being delivered a family member may open (appointments etc - explain this to your GP/Clinic). If and when you have a formal diagnosis. You can then decide how you want to play it. Remember, if you have the support of a medical practitioner, if gives you a better chance of persuading those around you that this is NO JOKE!

kEEP US UPDATED!

Good Luck!
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Re: I just want out

Postby Ice Maiden » Wed Oct 05, 2016 11:21 am

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"Never believe that a few caring people can't change the world. For, indeed, that's all who ever have." M.Mead

Man [...] must count no one but himself; that he is alone, abandoned on earth in the midst of his infinite responsibilities, without help, with no other aim than the one he sets himself, with no other destiny than the one he forges for himself on this earth." - J.P.Sartre.

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Re: I just want out

Postby Guest3306 » Thu Oct 06, 2016 3:26 am

Ice Maiden wrote:This is a very tough time for you. As I cannot be certain of your entire 'timeline' I can only make assumptions.

The hatred of one's body does not necessarily mean you are transgender. People can and do suffer from BDD ( See: http://www.nhs.uk/Conditions/body-dysmo ... ction.aspx ).

However, if this has a co-morbidity, (medications, drug use, stress, depression etc) it can be confused. Now I suspect you have already worked through this, maybe you have felt like a girl/boy (you do not state what your designation at birth was). For some time, maybe even from childhood.

Obviously, this may now have gon beyond, 'dressing-up' and socialising, as you are in fear of 'outting yourself. Sadly the only real way to manage all these feelings and stress, is to see your GP. You can make an appointment and say you have a cough, or bad throat - Just to get in there! :)

Once in there and sitting down just say, TAKE A DEEP BREATH! "I think I maybe transgender, and am feeling very unwell with these feelings" I NEED HELP!" Can you refer me to a Gender Clinic or local mental health (as it can take time for a referal and you need support now!

This unfortunately is something you are going to have to face up to. There is no magic remedy here. It will be terrifying for you to do. But remember a Doctor has to keep this information confidential. You may have to open a PO BOX or similar if you fear mail being delivered a family member may open (appointments etc - explain this to your GP/Clinic). If and when you have a formal diagnosis. You can then decide how you want to play it. Remember, if you have the support of a medical practitioner, if gives you a better chance of persuading those around you that this is NO JOKE!

kEEP US UPDATED!

Good Luck!


I should've clarified: AMAB, and im 18. I've felt like i should be a girl my entire life; one of my very first memories is me confused on what makes a girl and what makes a boy and which one I am, because I wanted to be a girl but everyone told me I was a boy.


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Re: I just want out

Postby Steffi » Sat Oct 08, 2016 7:48 pm

I didn't get around to replying to you personally, but you can read THIS
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To those who understand, I extend my hand
To the doubtful I demand, take me as I am
Not under your command, I know where I stand
I won't change to fix your plan, Take me as I am (Dreamtheatre - As I Am)



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