Pls help me,I dont know either I'm trans or not
Posted: Tue Aug 28, 2018 2:57 pm
So,hi everybody!
I'm not native English,so pls dont be mad,if I have some problems with grammar. I'm a 19 year old female (biologically).
So,it started at age 6-7,I was a typical tomboy,I liked to shop at the men's section and really hated all of the girly stuff. I always wanted to play with boys and basically I've always had only boy friends. At age 11-12 I just tried to convince myself,that I'm not a boy,I should be a girl, like I'm biologically a girl so I cant change it.I was always afraid(and I am now aswell) to speak about it,it's a secret of mine. Until this year,I almost believed it and tried to be a women/girl,date boys etc. but I always had a strange feeling.I just wanted to be called "he" and be treated like a male. I had soo many dreams about being a boy. Why I'm really uncertain about my gender is that I'm not attracted to girl so much. I've always seen the videos of trans persons,that they liked girl,had crush on a same gender person etc. but I didnt. I just imagined,how I could treat a girl as a boy,like I know what a girl wants (or something else). I'm scared of the society of my current country,because it's a post-soviet country and with this problem I'm likely to end up in a psychiatry. I'm not sick,I'm not crazy. I'm just confused about my gender and who I really want to be. Do you think,I'm trans or it's just a stage of my life?
I could read same stories of you guys to see other people's perspectives and how you managed it.
Thanks for reading,hope I wasnt boring so much :/
I'm not native English,so pls dont be mad,if I have some problems with grammar. I'm a 19 year old female (biologically).
So,it started at age 6-7,I was a typical tomboy,I liked to shop at the men's section and really hated all of the girly stuff. I always wanted to play with boys and basically I've always had only boy friends. At age 11-12 I just tried to convince myself,that I'm not a boy,I should be a girl, like I'm biologically a girl so I cant change it.I was always afraid(and I am now aswell) to speak about it,it's a secret of mine. Until this year,I almost believed it and tried to be a women/girl,date boys etc. but I always had a strange feeling.I just wanted to be called "he" and be treated like a male. I had soo many dreams about being a boy. Why I'm really uncertain about my gender is that I'm not attracted to girl so much. I've always seen the videos of trans persons,that they liked girl,had crush on a same gender person etc. but I didnt. I just imagined,how I could treat a girl as a boy,like I know what a girl wants (or something else). I'm scared of the society of my current country,because it's a post-soviet country and with this problem I'm likely to end up in a psychiatry. I'm not sick,I'm not crazy. I'm just confused about my gender and who I really want to be. Do you think,I'm trans or it's just a stage of my life?
I could read same stories of you guys to see other people's perspectives and how you managed it.
Thanks for reading,hope I wasnt boring so much :/