FTM open relationship insecurities.

[gino_marie]

Hello Everyone.

This is my first post, and I am going to dive right in.

I am 30 years old and starting my transition. I am in a weird spot to begin with as my entire life I have felt genderless and I am now seeing why.

I am engaged, and in a open relationship with that. My partner is now seeing someone that has already transitioned(FTM) and suddenly my body is filling with fire. My insecurities are building a wall around myself and in return it is causing turmoil in my life, her life and our life.

I don't know why. I don't know if it is from childhood trauma or if it from my jealously. All fueled by my own thought. Thinking of how he must feel to get is flat chest stroked. How she will respond to his touch. How his beard tickles her face when they kiss.

Has anyone else had this issue? Is there more to it than jealously on my end? I am making the one I love the most an enemy and I just want it to stop.

Thanks for listening to my complaints, I hope I can help someone and shares this common care ands respect.